Last weekend we took Kate with us to the beach on her first overnight youth trip. One night we took the youth shopping at the Tanger Outlets. We got back to the hotel pretty late so while Kevin and the youth went to do a bible study session, I headed to our room to put Kate to bed. It was about 9:30 so it was way past her bedtime but since she'd taken a LONG nap from about 3:00-6pm, I was sure that she probably wasn't all that tired. I let her play while I cleaned up the room and packed our stuff to go home the next day. When I finished packing I took her into the other room to put her to bed. All the lights were off so I sat down in a chair to hold her for a few minutes before bed.
Mind you, Kate is NOT a cuddler. I don't think she's sat still for 2 minutes since she started walking, so I really didn't think that me holding her would last very long at all. Boy was I mistaken. Kate laid her head on my shoulder and just stared up at me for about 15 minutes while I hummed every single song I could think of.
I finally got to the hymn "I Love You, Lord", and as I hummed the song while holding my sweet girl who was staring up at my face and who even leaned up to kiss me on my cheek, unprovoked, I couldn't help but think how special these lyrics really are. . .
I love you, Lord,
and I lift my voice
to worship you.
Oh, my soul rejoice!
Take joy, my King,
in what you hear.
in what you hear.
May it be a sweet, sweet song
in your ear.
I know that God's joy in us when we choose to love him is so much more than the joy we as parents feel about our own children. As much as I love Kate, I know that His love for me is SO much greater.
And as I finished up the song Kate sat up, pointed over at her crib, and said "bed". I knew that was the end of our cuddle time so I laid her down and quietly slipped out the door, thanking God for the opportunity to be her Mommy.